One year ago...

Around a year ago, I don't remember the exact date, my sister told me she was pregnant...back then we didn't know whether or not it would be something everyone in the family would be happy about, she told me to keep the information a secret, at least until she told my mom. I felt special of course, being one of the first people she told...last year, I didn't realize how hard it would be to have a niece in the Philippines, its hard on my siblings and specially to my parents, this is their first granddaughter, and they couldn't even hold her...I didn't realize that it was this hard to get attached to someone without ever having met them. Sabrina has united my family in more ways than she could ever know, its weird knowing that everyone in the family now knows how it feels like to be an aunt or an uncle. My brother is an adorable uncle, he always checks facebook to see if my sister has uploaded more pictures of Sab, he frequently skypes with my cousin and my cousin's daughter :) He's just adorable haha My parents stay up just to see little glimpses of Sabrina, no matter how tired my dad was yesterday, he woke up just to see her in the little time that we talked to my sister. They even put up with just using an Iphone, when they always complain any other time about how tiny phones are...wow I got off topic a lot! haha
     Back to Sabrina, and the news...the first thing I asked my sister after she told me she was pregnant, was "Are you happy?" It just seemed to me back then that there were so many people who try to get pregnant but fail, while the number of people who don't want the pregnancy is a significantly high number. I didn't believe that my sister would do anything to stop the pregnancy, I know that to her, a baby is a blessing, but I guess its just a safety measure that I have learned to take, not everyone is happy about the same things, and it is possible to offend someone without ever meaning to...I don't exactly remember what she said but it was most likely along the lines of its unexpected, but she was very happy.  Sabrina completed the family, she not only completed my sister's bond with her boyfriend but also my own family, now my sister getting here is a bigger and greater deal. We all just want to see my sister, we always have, but now that she has Sabrina, our desire for my sister to be accepted is even greater. After talking to my sister, I told a close friend, and he was like me, he asked whether or not it was a good thing, now that I think of it, maybe it was because of his question that made me think of asking my sister if she was happy...I have the worst memory in the family haha. After he said that, I realized how many people would have had the opposite reaction from my sister's. I realized how lucky my family has been, I don't think any other option other than keeping the baby ever crossed my sister's mind, the things that must go through other people's minds when they unexpectedly do get pregnant. Thank goodness she didn't go through that, if she did, she never told me, I highly doubt it...I'm rambling, there is really no meaning to this post, at least I can't figure it out right now haha...

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gimmelle said…
HA HA, I love this post, I completely understand how you feel. I felt the same way a couple of years ago when Irene gave birth to Arien. I was always checking facebook and demands more pictures of my first nephew. I wanted to hold him and just accepted the fact that I will miss the first few years of their life. I mean not being able to hold and touched them.I didn't realize that's how you feel right now. I was touched and I felt so happy when I saw how you all love my daughter. I pray to the Lord that you'll be able to go home next year to witness Sabrina's first birthday. Sabrina is such a huge blessing and I thank the Lord for giving her to Us. You're right The moment I found out about her existence I was so happy. And aborting her was never an option. I love her so much, And Im rambling too... I miss you my baby sister.
Chariz said…
I miss you so much too! How is it that you can make me cry so much with just seven lines of words? haha I pray that I can go home too!
gimmelle said…
your doing the same thing to me. Maybe because we both miss each other that much hahaha

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