Fashion merchandising keeps coming to mind when I think about what I think I'm good at, fashion for me is amazing. I'm not exactly the kind of girl who is edgy in her fashion choices but I learn easily, I can tell what looks good on people easily, or at least I like to think so. I do know what doesn't look good on certain people. I have patience, I guess that's what a girl in my position needs to have. I simply cannot be like my friends who just go into stores and pick out cute tops and dresses without thinking too much about the price, I have to patiently look through racks and racks of clothes that are in the clearance sections of stores like Ross(where practically everything is already cheap without the clearance price). I guess that's one of my good traits, patience? Obviously a weakness I have is low self-confidence, which immediately gets boosted when I know that the outfit I'm wearing is put together well. Picture taking used to be a favorite past time of mine, but ever since getting alopecia, I have always felt self-conscious. Getting terribly off topic is always a weakness.
One of my many aunts have apparently offered to pay for the costs of my books, but now that she knows that I don't exactly want to go into the medical field, I think she doesn't exactly want to go through with it. My uneasiness in telling her what major I wanted to go into may have been a big reason, but who can blame me...she is intimidating and I couldn't help but be tongue-tied in front of her. I can only hope that another aunt can invest in me and my studies. I think that my skills can definitely become way better after taking summer classes or partaking in pre-college activities, but they are just too costly. How do colleges expect people to have that much money? I shouldn't have gotten my hopes up about it though, so yes, it is my fault entirely, on getting my hopes up. No one ever said life was going to be fair. I can only hope and dream that I can fulfill everything I want to in life. If only I can get it in myself to brave the so called real world. If only I could be one of those accidental stars, at least in the field I plan to go into. If only I could be an overnight blog-star. haha as if. If only somehow I could be the best at something, if only there was something that only I could do.
I really hope that colleges can see the best in all I do, hopefully I can be good enough for once for someone :)
Hopefully I can find someone who can help me in achieving my dreams
I Need someone who can see what others, including myself, can't see with myself.
I need to gain leadership qualities and a high self-confidence.
then again, all leadership conferences I have been offered cost thousands of money, so I guess it's all on me